Kim Simonds
In my interview, I asked my interviewee if gender was based on biological or if it was based on social. She believes that it is based on social. My interviewee and I both agree that it is based on social. What we are taught from social institutions, especially from our parents. My interviewee claims that her parents played a different role as she was growing up. Her father was more emotional and shy than her mother. Her mother is more confrontational and stern. As the interview went on, in my interviewee's answers, there was a difference from what society claims as socially acceptable. However, while I was growing up, my family was the "traditional" norm of what was acceptable, my father was the disciplinarian, the bread winner, the more strict parent, as where my mother was the stay at home parent, the nurturer and the care giver. I then asked the interviewee if she thinks how her family dynamics made her the person she is today. She said that she is more like her mother, more open and confrontational. After the interview, it shoes how society sees the social norm from my generation to my interviewee's generation. ( I am much older than my interviewee) Times are changing, and that is a great thing to happen.
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In my interview, my interviewee and I discussed whether gender is biological or socially learned. We both agreed that we don't think people are necessarily "born" with their gender. Although we are all born of a certain sex, our gender is mostly shaped by the world around us and how we perceive it. My interviewee shared that they think gender is something that would be hard to change. It depends more on whether the person is more masculine or more feminine. They mentioned that how the person is brought up is very important. We both have not known someone personally who has gone through a change in gender and we agreed this would probably have an impact on how we think about it. My interviewee also mentioned that they find it abnormal to go through something such as, feeling as if you were a different gender than your sex. In our parents' time, it wasn't discussed as much and people were taught that they were born either a boy or girl. However, in the present day, people are beginning to push that boundary. As more people cross that line, there will be a lax in steadfast rules regarding sex and gender.
Nick Nakashian Weekly Participation
During my interview, my interviewee and I discussed whether or not gender itself and later homosexuality was a trait that is biologically innate within us, or a socially learned behavior. We quickly agreed that gender was a socially learned trait, seeing that there are qualities of either gender that a member of the opposite can agree with, leading them to identify with their biological opposite. However when we discussed homosexuality, my interviewee and myself felt that it was a biological trait, or rather something that a gay individual is born with rather than assuming the trait later in life because of societal influence. The chapter also spends a significant time on explaining where homosexuality comes from. There was a large study done on monozygotic twins, or twins from the same egg. This study suggested that there is a large possibility that if one twin is homosexual, the other is as well, showing that it is an innate feature, rather than a characteristic learned from the forces of society. However, is gender the same way, a force of nature that cannot be changed? Sociologists disagree with this idea, and so does the now famous teenage Chase Culpepper, who is a man but wears makeup and was shamefully forced to remove it at the DMV for his driver's license photo. Unlike what the readings in the chapter and biology tells Chase about masculinity, he feels comfortable and natural outside the norms of society and has suffered embarrassing backlash because of it.
Extra Credit
Kayla Forte
Gender is a very interesting concept. It makes life complicated in some ways and simplifies it in others. As a female, I grew up with a kind of tom-boy attitude. My mom made me play every sport because she said I wouldn't know what I liked unless I tried it. As a young child I played t-ball and soccer. As I reached about eight years old I started to play basketball. As I aged, my taste in sports changed and now I am a soccer player and a dancer. I tried everything from cheerleading to flag football. When I was five my mom married my step dad and I gained an older brother. I always wanted to hang out with him and his guy friends. When I was 7, my mom had my little sister, things changed then. I always wanted to play with her with barbies and dolls and make up and play dress up. I never felt pressured by either of my parent to act or behave a certain way; they just wanted me to be happy. Now that I am older and on my own, my parents worry about me even more because I'm their little girl. I have noticed things like they let my brother go out all the time but are stricter when it comes to me. They think because he is a male that he can protect himself better and he is less likely to be a victim of a crime.
When I talked to my interview partner, she had the same views as me. She had grown up wanting to go into the army, but she felt that she didn't have the image because she was a female. She changed her dreams because of this image that we have made of females going into the army. She had grown up with two brothers and one sister, however; she has always gotten along with her brothers more than her sister. She has a daughter of her own and she says that if she had a son she would see how things would be different in how she raised them. She also believes that being a female in her major, which is sociology, makes it more challenging for her. She sees that more men are working in her field and that is why she went back to school so she can better her chances of making it in her career.
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Extra Credit
Gender is a very interesting concept. It makes life complicated in some ways and simplifies it in others. As a female, I grew up with a kind of tom-boy attitude. My mom made me play every sport because she said I wouldn't know what I liked unless I tried it. As a young child I played t-ball and soccer. As I reached about eight years old I started to play basketball. As I aged, my taste in sports changed and now I am a soccer player and a dancer. I tried everything from cheerleading to flag football. When I was five my mom married my step dad and I gained an older brother. I always wanted to hang out with him and his guy friends. When I was 7, my mom had my little sister, things changed then. I always wanted to play with her with barbies and dolls and make up and play dress up. I never felt pressured by either of my parent to act or behave a certain way; they just wanted me to be happy. Now that I am older and on my own, my parents worry about me even more because I'm their little girl. I have noticed things like they let my brother go out all the time but are stricter when it comes to me. They think because he is a male that he can protect himself better and he is less likely to be a victim of a crime.
When I talked to my interview partner, she had the same views as me. She had grown up wanting to go into the army, but she felt that she didn't have the image because she was a female. She changed her dreams because of this image that we have made of females going into the army. She had grown up with two brothers and one sister, however; she has always gotten along with her brothers more than her sister. She has a daughter of her own and she says that if she had a son she would see how things would be different in how she raised them. She also believes that being a female in her major, which is sociology, makes it more challenging for her. She sees that more men are working in her field and that is why she went back to school so she can better her chances of making it in her career.
Álvaro Sosa
As a Méxican who was raised by women, my aunts. I can tell you that they made it clear that being a man was different than a woman. It got to a point in which I hated men and consequently myself. I could see men and find their flaws but there were not just any flaws. These were the flaws that directly damaged women such as alcoholism. I was never able to see the good things men did or to question why they did it until I was taken out of the positions of my aunts. That happened when I immigrated to the U.S.
I had no father because he was killed when I was four years old and so this made me very susceptible to others and also because my mother left to the U.S. that same year to find a job to have the means to support her to children, my brother (the older one) and I. I remember to cry a lot. Every time that I was yell at by my aunts, I would just cry and say nothing. Then they would say "You are not a girl to be crying; Do not be gay;" (of course this was in Spanish). They would use more homophobic terms each time.
When my brother was yell at he would respond back and even if he was hit, he would lough instead of cry but because he would lough instead of cry they would hit him until he actually cried but the tears were not tears of pain but rather anger of not being able to hit back. Clearly there was something different among us. My brothers self-steam was demolish through beatings and mine through insults.
At the kitchen we were never encouraged to learn how to cook. We were never encourage to wash the clothing we used. Our cousins who were girls on the opposite were encourage to do all the above. Until this day, I still don't know how to cook even when I adore eating and live with roommates who don't cook either. It seems like there was something implanted or program to be this way. Certainly, If I were born a female under the same conditions very little of me (as male) would exist.
On Wednesday September 10, 2014, I interviewed an African American Fresno state student. The respondent said that his life would be different if he was born a female. The natural an obvious difference would be biological. His interaction with society would remain almost unchanged. His private life and closeness to his parents would not change either. He said that he was raised in the same manner as his sisters making it safe to say that the only main difference would be biological.
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I asked my interviewee how his life would be different if he were born a female. He explained that his life would be different due to the special treatment he receives from his family. He is one of three kids and he is the only male. Because he is the only boy his parents always treated him a little differently than his sisters. He was expected to be more successful and as a result they pushed and helped him more on his goals to go to college. He is the first in his family to attend college. He believes that college might have been an even more difficult task, or even impossible, if he had been another daughter. He explains that the majority of his support comes from his father. He believes that is he were a female, him and his father would not have had the same bond that they have today because it is the male bonding that has brought them so close together. He also talked a little bit about how girls are still inferior in society; therefore, he not only is aided by his family but also by society. He is grateful to be a male and enjoys the perks that it brings to his life.
Growing up there were very few things that my parents categorized as being for "boys". I was taught to act like a lady but I participated in all the things boys did. I've been camping since I was a baby and got my first dirt bike at age eight. To this day I could pitch a better tent than the majority of the guys I know. If I were born a male I think only some things would change. I would still participate in the same hobbies and activities and probably have the same group of friends. The one major thing that I think would be different is my career option. Right now I am in school to become a veterinarian; however, if I were a male I believe that my dad would want me to follow in his footsteps only go further than he has. I have been learning the business since I was eight years old and I am good at it, but because I'm "daddy's little girl" he wants me to do whatever make me happy. However, if I were a boy he would probably want me to follow in his footstep and eventually surpass him. Also, my parents have always been strict with me for fear of something bad happening. If I were a boy, I would probably have much more freedom than I do now. Even as an adult they put restrictions to keep me safe. These are the major things that I believe would be different if I were a boy.
Nick Nakashian
Soc 131
Extra Credit Response
Masculinity is a gender that is defined by many physical and active qualities. To be considered masculine entails being able to perform many physical and visible traits. Men are strong, confident, demanding and good with their hands; at least these are some of the qualities that are thought of as masculine. Men who do not posses most of these qualities may be thought of as not as masculine as their peers
For example I am terrible at working with tools and fixing things, where as my dad is one of those who can fix anything and likes to do everything himself. So because I am not as good with mechanical projects as my dad, male social rules make me seem inferior to him, that he is more of a man than I am. This has made me try to be more masculine in other areas of my life, to be more athletic or self-driven and achieve higher in school. However if I were born female I don't believe that many of the things in my life would change because I am involved in a lot of things that I believe are gender neutral. For example I am an art history major, and this is a field that is not dominated by either sex. I have had just as many female art professors as I have had males; I have read just as many textbooks written by males with doctorates, as I have read from females with doctorates. Also I used to be a competitive swimmer and this is a sport that is just as popular with men as it is women. We swim the same events; the same practices and even share lanes together.
In my interview, my interviewee had similar feelings to if she had been born male, in regards to being involved with things that are more general neutral. Majoring in sociology, my interviewee believes she would still be interested in this area of study if she were a man, because it was a man, her boyfriend also a sociology major, who sparked her interest in the subject. Also she currently works with special needs children, a career that is dominated by females, however my interviewee feels she could have still been involved in this area because again it was due to the influence of a man in the field that sparked her interest. Being one of three daughters, my interviewee tried do share as many activates with her dad as one girl can; the only thing she feels would have changed in her life, had she been born a male is that she would have been different experiences she could have shared with her father.
Anna Allen
Growing up, I never really felt really pressured by my family to behave in one way or another. My parents were all right with my playing with "boy toys" and "girl toys" alike when I was growing up; going through drive-thrus and ordering from the kids menu always ended in questions like "Anna, do you want a dragon or a My Little Pony today?" Playtimes were epic with Godzilla, Barbies, trucks, dinosaurs, unicorns, pirate ships, and horse-drawn carriages (one of my mom's favorite stories to tell is the one where our puppy chewed the arms off of Sleeping Beauty, and rather than being upset about the attack, I told my mother that "That's okay; it'll be more realistic when Godzilla eats it"). Playing "house" bored me to death. I played sports with enthusiasm. I exhilarated in riding horses. I loved Pokemon (the show and the games), and was so happy when, in generation II's Crystal version, they introduced the option to be a girl. When I was old enough, I worked at the ranch with my parents while I was going to school, with all the veterinary humor and dirty jobs included. I dislike feeling dependent on things. Being "quiet" is a struggle. I took jazz and ballet classes. My high school counselor was flummoxed when I chose to take weight training for my remaining PE credit, where I was one of only four girls in a class of thirty, and the only one of those girls who wasn't there solely to ogle our male classmates (by the girls' own admissions). I have never been terribly understanding when someone says someone can't do something because "she's a girl."
If I was a boy, things could be very different. Things could also be very similar. There is a possibility that I would just become an Anna with no boobs and a penis, still pretty comfortable with all my likes and dislikes. However, it might also be true that society would have more of a problem with a boy's playing with "girl toys" along with the "boy toys" and I would have grown up to be a timid, submissive young man, or even one that was much more aggressive and defensive about things. Perhaps I would have grown to be a closed-minded person. Even with my raising's being the same, there is a likelihood that I would have chosen different friends, and would have had a different socialization that way. Maybe I wouldn't have been as lucky with these different friends as I've been with the ones I have now. Or maybe I would have made similar friends, and I would continue to reside more toward the middle of the masculine/feminine social spectrum. Perhaps I would still actively play sports. I would likely have a different way of expressing my opinions—less expressive of emotions, but more assertive about my suggestions and opinions. I would be much less concerned about going out by myself—I highly doubt that I would still feel the need to carry pepperspray on my person, or worry about someone spiking my drink at a party. Perhaps I would have more slurs turned against me about being a sex-obsessed animal just because I was male. I'd probably get fewer scholarships. I'd likely be expected to drink more, especially whiskey and beer (my dad's and grandpa's favorites—grandpa still gives my dad grief about not liking gin, so I can only imagine what it would be if his grandson/dad's son disliked all those the way I do as their daughter/granddaughter). However, I honestly believe that, if the main points in my life were the same, I would turn out to be more or less the same person.
Extra Credit
Since my respondent was a female who grew up in the system, she believed that had she been born a male, she would've in fact wound up worse off in life and wouldn't have managed to come so far. As she talked about growing up in the system she said that, although there aren't just two ways a girl can turn out in the system, one way is by becoming a drug addict, getting pregnant, or becoming a prostitute. The other way is by fighting for yourself since there isn't anyone else who would fight for you. However, although men have similar statistics for becoming addicts they just have it easier. She had a brother who was one and she said that it seemed like he used it as an excuse. Furthermore, she's says the system treats women the same way they've been treated throughout history and still do today. By how women are still paid less, treated like they are pieces of meat, and have different expectations placed on them especially when it comes to kids. That a woman who abandons her baby for drugs is a whore but a guy who sells the drugs or kills people is a deadbeat father. She states that the women who fought on women's behave to get their rights during the Civil Rights movement would be rolling over in their graves since even now women are treated like sex symbols or feel inferior to their husbands, because of these preconceived notions of how men and women should act. She told a story of how her niece said she wanted to be a firefighter, but her aunt told her that it was a boy job and wouldn't she want to do some nice girl job like dealing with cute clothes. Instead, she said if she wants to be a firefighter then let her be a firefighter. She thinks that had she been a male, that although there would be some ways that might make it a bit hard, that it wouldn't have mattered how she turned out and that she wouldn't have gotten very far in life.
In my eyes had I been born a male I think I would be drastically different from the person I am today. I think that my beliefs, values, and notions of what should or shouldn't be wouldn't be the same. Being a woman, as you grow up you're kind of pushed into being "girly" and doing "girly things" so it makes you more sensitive to things. When I was little I had an older brother and I followed him around constantly. So when I saw him playing in the mud, or with frogs, or with toy cars, or watching teenage mutant ninja turtles that's what I wanted to do too and I enjoyed it. But as I grew older I was labeled the "tom boy" and was usually ignored by the boys my age since it seemed so strange that a girl would like the same things they did. It made me feel really uncomfortable for acting the way I did or enjoying the things I did. So, I tried to do more girly things like play dress up or with dolls, but never completely gave up the things that I liked. I think if I had been male, I wouldn't have been as sensitive to the way others viewed me, because I would've been doing what was only the natural things a boy should do and wouldn't think anything of it anymore. But, being a girl gave me a different perspective and I grew more aware of what our society has labeled normal girl and boy behavior. Due to this I grew to dislike these norms that are demanded of us and began to think that there was nothing wrong with a girl liking so called "boy things" and a boy liking so called "girl things." I don't believe that there should be any kind of distinction at all. You like what you like regardless of what sex you are or perceive yourself to be. Being born a man I'm not sure I would've had the same mindset that I do now.
When presented with the question "how would your life be different if you were born of the opposite sex" my Interviewee discussed the different ways in which she would be different. She believes that everything would change from the type of people she would spend time with, down to her extracurricular activities.
My interviewee discussed that the type of sports that she participated in would change from "feminine" sports such as color guard to a more "masculine" sport like football. She also said the people in which she associates with would also change. For example her friends, being of the opposite sex she believes that she would no longer hang around the same people she does being a woman.
I, like many other people, believe in the idea that society shape the way Men and women should behave, However when I am given the same exact question I don't believe that much about me would change. I think the way I was brought up I would still have the same hobbies that I do now. Because I was raised by mostly males I believe that society already sees me as "opposite". I do however think that society would behave more differently if I was the opposite sex such as I would not be getting calls every hour to see where I'm at, when I'm out at night. Considering I'm the only girl in my family I think the over perfectiveness would not exist.
Unlike my interviewee I don't think that personal hobbies and the people I hang out with would chance. I do believe that the idea of society standards would change such as being looked at different, and being paid more.
Sociological Imagination
Stephanie Grieb
In society today, many women have taken some of the roles that men have been taking back then. Therefore, many would say that men and women are seen as equals, but there are many generalizations about the two genders that some people have either forgotten or ignored. In class on Wednesday, we were asked to interview a classmate and ask them how it would be different if they were born as the other sex. When I was asked, I said that my interests might be a little different. For example, I used to dance, but maybe if I were male I might want to do football or wrestling since I could have more strength, but that's only an assumption; obviously I could still dance if I were male. My personality would be different; I might be more aggressive rather than soft and quiet and the way I dress would obviously be different. However, I liked the way my classmate that I interviewed responded. The interviewee said that if they were born of the opposite gender, they would have the same personality as they have now because they wouldn't know about their original gender. The interviewee also said that because she grew up in a household with all men, the people she associates wouldn't change much. Also she said that since her interests are mainly drawing and writing, they wont change either. The interviewee stated that being born a different gender, wouldn't change that much about her and I thought she made an excellent point because not all men are more loud and independent than some women may be, so you can't just assume that you will automatically become more independent only because you're male. From this, the answer to this question probably depends on how a person perceives themselves and how they see society's perception of the gender roles.
Karanvir Gill
The socialization that I have had in my life has pretty much been dominated by masculine and feminine thoughts/behaviors. From day one, my parents described how I am supposed to live, think, and speak based on my male gender. I was supposed to be strong, being able to lift heavy objects that just got heavier as I grew older. I don't mind being strong at all, it is amazing, but it would have been nice to have a choice in the matter. Since I was a child, I was supposed to be independent and experienced. My parents would always remind me to ask help only when needed, and to try and learn things by actually doing it. Again, I do not mind these teachings that are ingrained in me, as today I am confident in new experiences and challenges while others are not. These are a couple of masculine traits that shaped my socialization. All the feminine traits, however, were shunned from my development process. I was taught to not be soft, weak, emotional, passive and many other "traits" that are exclusively feminine. Even though I was advised from parents to avoid these traits, it turns out that I actually am somewhat passive, and a bit emotional. And my socialization is influenced by having these traits by how people treat me. Luckily, I have been treated mostly good throughout my life, but I believe that is because I am not overly emotional or passive, and still have many masculine traits. If I was born the opposite sex, I am pretty sure I would be the complete opposite of who I am now because I would have been taught to be feminine instead of masculine. There would be constant lectures from parents to be a "good" female in society. But even without influence from parents, I probably would not want most masculine traits anyways. I don't think I would want to be the girl that is stronger than all the other girls and some boys. I believe that I would succumb to be how society would want me to be. The influence from society is just too strong.
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What I heard my interviewee is that he is influenced from the male side of the family, and lives by what is expected from them. He told me that the male side of this family does a lot of male stereotype things such as watching sports and being strong. After I asked the respondent how life would be for him if he was a female, he told me he would probably be like his grandma and mom, the female influences in his life. They are organized, settled and live with "pace", and my interviewee said he would probably be the same because it is what's expected from a female.
If I was to be asked "What behavior and thoughts would be different if you were born of the opposite sex? I was born a female. If I were a male, I know life would have been extremely different. For instance, as a young boy, I would have been able to "rough house" play, and to be loud and noisy. When I was growing up, I was expected to be passive, quiet and play with dolls. My teenage years would be different as well if I was a male. I feel that I would have a lenient curfew with my parents. It would also be more accepted if I was rebellious. I would, without a doubt, have less physical and emotional changes going through puberty. Growing up as a female in my teenage years, my parents would seldom let me go out on a date; I was asked the "101 questions." Where are you going? Who are you going with? What are you going to do? When are you coming home? etc...(The list goes on and on) I grew up with two brothers; they were never asked these questions. If I ever got in the slightest trouble, I got the riot act, grounded for weeks and the feeling of disappointment toward my parents. Puberty is a whole new ball game in itself. If I was a male, my voice would change, as a female, it was my job to be presentable, for example, do my hair, make-up, shave various parts of the body, (arms and legs) and we can't forget the menstrual cycle. So, in all aspects, this is actually when I would love being a male. As an adult, being a male has its advantages and disadvantages. If I was a male, the advantages would include, not giving birth, raising the children and the housework. The disadvantage would be the pressure of maintaining a steady income for my family. I would always have to protect the family emotionally, physically and monetary. As a female, we are naturally nurturing. For me, raising my children and cleaning the house was the better end of the stick, than that of my husband. The advantages are after work, being a male, I would be able to relax the rest of the day, have a meal cooked for me, my clothes cleaned and my castle (home) clean and organized.
My Interview
My interviewee was a female; no names are mentioned to protect her identity. The question at hand for this interview is, "Do you think your life would be different if you were born a male?" My interviewee answered yes, that her life would be different as a male. She claims that she would not endure female health issue or pains (Cists on ovaries) that a male does not have that problem. The interviewee also claimed that her parents wanted a boy, when she was born. Furthermore, the interviewee claims that if she was a male, her parents would have been less strict on the nightly curfew rules. I proceeded to ask her. "How does that make you feel?" Her response... ANGRY". In the regards of younger siblings, she has a sister, if she were a male, there would have been less responsibility to help her mother tend and care for her sister, if she was a male. I asked the interviewee, "Do you think your friendships would be different?" she claims it would be different, in a negative sense, she claims that male friendships tend to drift apart through the years. The interviewee was then asked a question in relating to the work place. "If she was male, would it influence her choice of job she is seeking now?" The respondent claims "no" Her future job is in the Criminology field, she claims that the female gender is highly sought out for in this field.
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Note: This interview would not be valid to use in my study. I did not get consent from the interviewee.
Interview summary:
When I asked the person I was interview what would be different if he was of the opposite sex the first thing he said that he would have less freedom because he was from a Mexican background. While growing up he saw his sisters having to deal with this. He told me that when his sisters where coming to Fresno State they had to live with their uncle, while he was able to get an apartment with his friends. He also said that they had to go back home every weekend and that he had the choice of going back to home on weekends if he wanted. The interviewee also said that as a female he would have more responsibilities. While growing up his sisters would have to do things around the house, that also include taking care of him. Another thing he told me was that he didn't think his social network would be any different from the one he already has. He stated that even if he were to be a girl he'd prefer to be friends with guys rather than with girls. Lastly he said that he doesn't think his personality would be any different if he were a girl.
1) What masculine and feminine thoughts/behaviors shaped your socialization?
2) What behavior and thoughts would be different if you were born of the opposite sex?
1) I believe that the thoughts/behaviors that shaped my socialization the most would have to be that females are dependent and fragile. The reason why these two has had a greater affect on me is because coming from a Mexican background I'm not given as much freedom as my brothers. I'm dependent on my parents a lot more than my brothers are, but I'm not sure if this is because I'm a female or because I'm going to college full time, it could be a little of both.
2) If I were of the opposite sex I would be able to enjoy a lot more freedom than I do now. I think I would also be a lot more confident in myself. The reason I think this is because as a girl I always have the "this isn't lady like" thought in the back of my head. I feel like if I were a male I wouldn't have to worry about what people said when I did something that wasn't appropriate for a female to do. I also wouldn't have to worry about having to prove myself to other guys when I'm playing online. Usually when I play online guys see me as an easy target since I'm a girl, so I have to prove to them that I can play the game as well as them. My social network wouldn't change or at least I don't think so. The reason I think this is because I already have more guy friends than girl friends. If I were a guy I would probably have the same amount of girl friends that I do now. Since I'm sort of a "tomboy" I think my personality would be the same. I just think I'll be a lot more confidant in the things that I do.
My sophomore year of high school I changed my name to Rodney-after my favorite skater at the time- changed my dress style to be more noticeably male (loose jeans, baggy shirts, backward caps). I even changed my facial expressions. I made sure to smile less, stand taller, and I avoided colors associated with women. I would recommend action movies to my dad and I'd sit with him while he watched hoping for some bonding time, hoping he would like me. I don't know why I wanted approval from someone who I didn't like. My stint as a male didn't stick for too long, I eventually got tired of not smiling and went back to doing my own thing, which I never considered to be very feminine in the first place. What initially began as imitation to gain respect turned into resentment and I began to loathe men. What a child! After much learning and self-exploration I wrote an essay titled "Equal, Not the Same" and thus I put a foot into the door of feminism. If I had been born a male, I'd probably dress in the way socially acceptable for men, but less snazzy and lazier. That's the type of woman I am now. I cannot for the life of me find the will to go through an hour of beautification. I feel very neutral, but I'm sure that is far from true. Everything about me has been carefully constructed by society. I wear tighter jeans because it's acceptable for women and good luck trying to find any other kind in a women's department store, but they're bellbottoms because I stopped paying attention to fashion in the 8th grade. I have long hair compared to men because women have long hair. I knew women out there were treated as I was but I never heard any of them complain. I figured they were happy to fit the feminine mold; they were good at it. Regardless of our current gender situations, I'm happy to be female. It took me a while to realize it. I am able to visible feelings without being jeered. I can cry if I want to. I don't understand why the women are ridiculed for being sensitive or having feelings. I consider those things to be superpowers. I feel I can live more fully and explosively if I feel deeply. I'm not naive to believe men don't have feelings. Of course they do. Unfortunately, they keep those "women germs" deeply hidden else they be called a sissy, a pussy, a vag, a little bitch, a girl, a fag. You know, all things synonymous with women. Because being a woman somehow has become the ultimate insult.
